Saturday, November 12, 2011

So close, yet so far

Today marks day 9 of my stims.  I was at the doctors this morning for yet another round of blood work and ultrasound.  They found 28 follicles which sounds great, but really not all of them will mature and not all of them will contain eggs, but still 28 is a pretty good number.  The biggest one was 17 the smallest was 10, whatever than means.. I've given up trying to decode the doctor talk.  I'm also starting to get frustrated because it feels like we are so close yet so far away from my retrieval.  The first time we spoke with the doctor he said it would be the 14th or 15th, which is Monday or Tuesday, then this past Tuesday he said it would be either Tuesday or Wednesday and this morning he said it would be either Wednesday or Thursday.  I guess this is because he said they are growing very slowly.  He also asks me every time I go in if I'm bloated and crampy and basically asks how I'm feeling.  Well, I'm not bloated, and I'm not all that crampy and I was so worried this morning because maybe that meant that something was wrong. He said it was just fine.  I really hate this, I can't figure out what I'm supposed to be feeling.  At the moment all I feel is fat, so I guess I do feel kinda bloated.  

If my retrieval is Thursday, then my transfer will be between Monday or Wednesday, and if that's the case then I'll be on bed rest on Thanksgiving. YAY!!  Its a good thing everyone is coming to my house so they can all cook for me!  Also,  my wonderful husband took this whole week off thinking my retrieval would be around Monday or Tuesday so he could be here for the retrieval and bed rest, but now it looks like everything is happening a couple days later so after speaking with my mom this morning, it looks like she'll be packing up her suitcase and coming somewhere between Sunday and Tuesday and staying until Thanksgiving.  Lucky her!  

So I guess I have to be patient.  I have officially been on hormones so long that I've gone from like semi-bitchy some of the time to full out mega-bitch all the time.  And what is sad is that I know this and can't do anything about it.  Thank you, hormones!  Here's to praying we hear something good tomorrow morning.  I feel like I'm in the dark about this whole thing even though I'm really not.  Like I'm just kind of sitting around waiting and its taking forever.  Well that is all for today, talk to you all soon.  :)

6 comments:

thirtiesgirl said...

It sounds like you're doing awesome! I had to look at how old you are because that's a lot of follicles. Anything over 10 has a chance of becoming mature. So, you're in super good shape. Your doctor is probably just waiting to try to get the smaller ones to catch up and to grow the larger ones a bit more. We started at the same time and my retrieval will be Wednesday. My RE is excited about my stim and has said all is going excellent. So, I think you're right there with me. Hold strong, just a few more days.

NewYearMum2.blogspot.com said...

I find decoding what they're saying so frustrating too... and always wonder why decisions are made the way they are ? Maybe he's just checking that you aren't developing OHSS... my FS doesn't ask those questions, so I'm sure it's not a bad sign that your cycle isn't working. Your numbers sound great.. and wonderful that your mum can stay... and even better that you're on bed rest over Thanksgiving :)) xoxo

Ally said...

My one thing now is that I'm starting to go emotionally nuts from the hormones. I've read and re-read both of your comments numerous times and cried. I don't even know why. I'm not sad. I'm happy to have made friends through my blog and even happier to know there are people out there going through the EXACT same thing. I hate this hormone crap... Hope you're both holding up better than I am and fingers crossed for both of your procedures!!! Hugs, hugs and more hugs!!!

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Holli said...

I felt your struggle while reading this Ally. You sound like a planner and there is nothing worse for a planner than no being able to plan. It sucks!! I hate not knowing. It ups my anxiety levels SOO much more when I don't know what's going on. I'm happy that you have the support of your husband and your mom this week... that will be good.... and I'm still thinking positive happy thoughts down here in Dallas for ya!!

marilyn said...

okay!!! do not feel bad about the hormonal roller coaster. It is going to happen..you are on major hormones..just wait for the progesterone..those are really intense. Be sure to have your husband go and get himself a massage though..it is really good to let him know how much you appreciate him...he is going through a lot too:)